Bored... Stressed... A little bit of everything

Gosh, can you get more bored or what?
I wish I could do something else than sit here at the store just hanging out. Go shopping with someone or go for a ride. But no, my best friends are on dance competition and my pony is at home and I'm in town. I don't even know when I'm getting picked up! It's either tonight or tomorrow. It would be pretty good if someone could tell me. So I don't just have to sit and wait for them. But well, I guess I'm getting kind of used to that. I never know what's going on, no one tells me. Ever! It really stinks, before I came here I was so used to plan everything and pretty much know everything that was going to happen to me a month in advance. Well, not anymore! I just wake up, hope someone takes me to school, walks to the store after school (or well, before rehearsals started at least) and hoped someone would tell me what was going to happen next. Pretty interesting life, right...?

I am done with the blocking for the play (or at least everything I know) and with my US History assignment. Now I just have to do that stupid Psychology assignment and I really don't want to do it! Hmm, maybe I should start that research paper instead? Yeah, that sounds like a pretty good idea, because I'm running out of time I think. You know, 4 more weeks of school so like 3 weeks till it's due and I haven't even started the research yet! Better get cracking!

Blocking black-out!

Oh Geez! Why did I say that I could write down all the exits and entrances for the female chorus? Gosh, I can't remember a thing now! Or I know what we do, but I just can't remember when we enter the stage! I really hope that K, K, and A can help me on Monday to figure it all out. But I'm pretty proud anyway, I remember almost everything except two entrances! And I don't think anyone really knows when we enters for those scenes.
But I am so excited for the play right now! It's so much fun working with those people and I love them all! Especially K and K, we are hanging around doing everything together! I love them to death! <3
But well, better get going on those homeworks too...

To do or not to do...homeworks?

Sitting at the store my host family owns. Pretty lame here, I guess I could open the store to get some customers, but no! Haha, I wouldn't get any homeworks done then, like I get anything done now... Pretty much not. Well, at least I started the assignment for psychology, but I will probably finish it on Monday during open. I think I'm going to start my US History homework. That didn't seem too hard, and I prefer US History before Psychology. At least today. :)

Well, my host mum is still kind of pissed. But not on me, phew! She's pissed at my host dad (her husband, duh!) and at the dance teacher. Well I don't blame her for being mad at Ms. S, she has been pretty rude to most people lately. And especially my host mum. My host mum have been very nice to Ms. S but it doesn't seem like she appreciates it. OK, Ms. S has been amazing to the girls, and my host mum is grateful for that. But Ms. S is pretty pissed at my host mum since last competition because we didn't show up for the optional dinner. And now she's pissed because they can't attend today either because they have other stuff going on before leaving to ND. Ms. S is still pretty much a child, at least in many ways. She's only 21 and owns her own business but she doesn't really behave as an adult like she should, with being a teacher and everything. Sometimes it's OK to tease her and have fun with her and other days she's a bi** and won't take anything! Well I'm sick of it, only like 1 more month with dance for her! Yiey!

Weekend coming up!

Yiey! I'm done with tests for this week! Everything is done and I can almost relax now! Now I only have to do the homeworks for next week and start my research paper for Psychology. And I have nothing planned for this weekend. That's going to be amazing! But the danceteam is going to Dance Competition, and I'm not coming with them. Why? Because I really don't want to sit in a car for 6 hours, then sit and watch dance for 6 hours, and after that sit in the car for 6 hours to get home. Doesn't seem too tempting does it? I will just have to stay at my host grandparents who just came home from Vegas. I don't mind staying at their house, then I'm in town and can do pretty much anything!

I talked to this girl in my History class today that seems really nice. Why didn't I meet some of those nice people like 6 months ago? I only have about 2 more months here in SD, which is really really sad! I'm going to miss it so much! But well, better late than never, right? So I'm just happy that I might have gotten a new friend. You can't have too many, can you?

Oh, and I know now why I was so crappy last night. PMS. I've never had mood swings like that before a period, I usually just get a major cramp and can't stand up because of it. But oh well. Mood swings are much better than that stupid cramp!

Host parents fighting

OK, what do I do? My host parents are fighting down stairs. I don't know about what, but my host mum doesn't sound too happy. Well, who's happy during a fight? But anyway, it seems like they fight pretty often, about pretty much everything! It's really awkward for me, because I don't know what to do. And I feel so bad for the girls, their parents are fighting loud and just a second ago I could hear one of the girls running up the stairs to her bedroom. Should I do something? Go and talk to the girls, so that they might focus on something else than their parents fighting? I'm so bad at this, my parents (biological) rarely fights and when they do it's not this big. I have never felt awkward when my parents have had fights, maybe it is because they are my parents and not someone elses? Well, the best might just be to not interrupt and just sit here, keep reading a bunch of different blogs and try to answer some e-mails. Maybe...

Crappy day

Or maybe not the whole day. Just during dance I felt like crap. Nothing was fun, and I really really didn't want to be there. Even though I love the girls there, I just couldn't get a smile on my face seeing them. Both Chelsea and Shayna saw that something was wrong, well it couldn't have been that hard, 'cause I'm usually full of energy. Shayna took me to the side and asked me what was wrong and gave me one of those big hugs only Shay can give. Which resulted in me crying. Well, I don't have anything against crying, except I rather not if I try to look like everything is OK. So we stood and talked and she asked me what was wrong. But I didn't know what was wrong, so I just said that it was a reaction on stress. That I have so much stuff to do, well it could be because of that, but I had felt fine earlier that same day. Well, it's nice to know that I have friends that will try to figure out what it is that's wrong with me. My lovely little Chelsea and Shayna for example! <3 But I don't really like my dance teacher Ms. S. She's almost always crappy and I hate it! And I pay her to be my teacher but still some of the other students are teaching my class instead. I'm not paying her $35/month for having someone else teaching!

Done..?

Well, it seems like I'm pretty much done with schoolwork for a while now! The presentation this morning went pretty good, I know I passed it at least, maybe a B and hopefully an A! I finished my Sr Comp essay during class today when we were supposed to do other stuff. But I was done already and didn't want to move on. Well now I just have to study for my US History test I have Friday and then the weekend is pretty much free! Or maybe not, I really really have to start writing on my psychology report. It's supposed to be around 10 pages, so I better get going I guess. I haven't started, at all!

But life is pretty good now, I love being in the spring play. So much laughing and amazing people! Can it get any better? Well, if it only could go on for a longer time I guess. It's like 2 weeks till opening night on Friday. And it's only like 22 days left of school! That means that it's really little time to get the finals ready and then it's pretty much to say good-bye to everything. How sad isn't that? I will cry so much on graduation and pretty much make a fool of myself. But whatever, it's not really like I'm coming back. Or hopefully I will come back, someday...